Faith

*I had this saved but not posted yet, though I made some edits. 

Before you assume from the title that this is a post about religion I am sorry it's not. In my Witch post I wrote more about my upbringing and that I do not really consider myself 'religious' anymore. But just because I don't have faith in a god does not mean I don't have faith. I now view faith like I view trusting the process. Or like when you put faith in someone or something. What they choose might not have necessarily been your choice but you respect their decision anyway because it is up to them, not you. 

I lost faith in a lot of humanity during COVID with the push back on wearing masks and getting vaccinated. Everyone kept thinking it was about control but really it was a simple preemptive measures for public safety that seemed to be so hard to understand. I mean we wear seat belts right? The issue was people stopped listening to the science experts and listened to themselves instead and it became something political when it's not and never should have been. 

I read this autobiography book by John Callahan, a quadriplegic cartoonist with a dark humor who doesn't take himself seriously at all. It really opened my eyes. They made a movie out of it with the same name called He Won't Get Far on Foot which is what prompted me to read the book first. In it he talked about what it was like living as an adopted quadriplegic and how his life is at the mercy of his caregiver who might not have his best interests at heart. He explained how horrible Medicare is to anyone who needs any sort of government assistance and gets any sort of income or money for anything they do. He started selling some of his cartoons and they started to threaten to take away his benefits at anytime, which constantly loomed over his head. 

Nevermind the fact that he could never change his situation. They were basically bullying him with threats which is maddening. I hope the system is better now but somehow I doubt it. I have a tendency to talk more about change than doing it and I think that is many of us when it comes to our government. Honestly it just seems like an uphill battle and many others like me are just tired. I am tired of living through historical moments. There are times when I lose hope for the future. Negativity seems to catch on like wild fire. But sometimes I find hope in the small things in life like nature and creating things. If the outside world seems like a scary or frustrating place you can always build your own sanctuary right where you are. That is essentially what John had to do with creating cartoons and if he can do it so can anyone else. 

Even with the confidence that comes from success, I never forget that the world remains a tough place. 

~ page 161 'Don't Worry, He Won't Get Far on Foot' by John Callahan 

Population keeps on breeding

Nation bleeding, still more feeding, economy

Life is funny, skies are sunny

Bees make honey, who needs money? No, not poor me

I'd love to change the world

But I don't know what to do

So I'll leave it up  to you

~I'd Love to Change the World

by Ten Years After