Healing

I wanted to give you the hope I found

But instead, you just kept breaking me down.

You made it seem like you wanted to heal

But now I question what was real.

I am mad at myself for giving in

And letting you win, over and over again 

I was afraid to stand up to you at first.

But when I started to call you mean words back

I quickly found it was patience for me you lacked.

You started to become more and more pushy

And when I became angry

You then started to turn it around on me.

When all I wanted was for you to believe.

I am done giving the benefit of the doubt and getting burned 

I am done giving what I do not get in return.

I will not help others who do not ask for it

I will no longer tolerate being treated like shit

No matter how we feel,

These emotional wounds need time to heal.

I am tired of putting myself last.

So I have to leave you in the past.

I will keep the good and learn from the bad.

I hope one day you realize what you had.