Disappointed

Written: September 2022

Sometimes I am unsure of this life I am living

Is this how being an adult is supposed to be?

Growing up I was told money didn’t buy happiness

But every day it seems to get more expensive just to live 

Is this how living is supposed to be? 

I try to stay positive and look on the bright side

But I can’t help it 

I look around and feel disappointed

I thought that we were all free 

That we could all grow up to be whatever we wanted to be

That we all get the same opportunity

But as I get older, I learn that is not true

Is this really the best we can do? 

We care more about profits than the planet we live on

We care more about unborn children than we do living ones

I thought we were the melting pot of the American Dream?

Now we are using human beings as pawns in political schemes

It seems we love to point fingers instead of finding solutions 

All this time I thought we were all one

Come to find out we are not ‘united’ at all

I guess we will see if ‘divided, we fall’

I am disappointed in what we call ‘the justice system’

I thought it was about finding the truth 

But instead its only about what you can prove 

Money is nothing but pieces of paper 

Yet if you have enough you have the advantage

Do we even know what’s real anymore?

I am disappointed

And I don’t know what to do..

Many people who I have looked up to 

Have turned out to have wicked views

Screaming about fake news

When they follow a wolf in sheep's clothing

Who claims he is all knowing

But instead of moving forward

It seems like we are going backward

One group legislating their personal beliefs on many

Obsessed over controlling women's bodies

When does it end? 

How much further do we have to descend?

It seems that the most down to earth people I meet 

Are the poor, misfits, and the outcasts of society

I hoped the pandemic would help us be better

But it seems we have just turned bitter

Everything seems to move so fast

It is hard to keep up sometimes

I blink and another year has passed

Sometimes I feel like I am sitting still 

and my life is passing me by

I wish I knew when I was younger 

that no adult has it 100% together

We just become masters at hiding it